Some may minimize what you’re going through, but I for one totally understand and it’s REAL. Only the brave walk this path. And not only are you brave to walk it, you are brave to be so transparent and honest about what you’re going through in a world that belittles itself and others. The fact that you are facing this head-on without any whitewashings or spiritual bypassing and reframing shows to me exactly how courageous you are. You’re not alone. I understand pain and feeling defeated and wanting to give up. Hang in there and know you’ve got a friend.