….And overcoming the inner and outer Debbie Downers of the world…..
There will be people who will try and stop your light, people who will be unconsciously jealous and people who will label and misunderstand your passion for a pathology. Don’t give them that power, let them go and do what you want anyway.
I love to sing and dance. I have always wanted to be a the lead singer of a band and a musician and every single cell in my body wants that so bad. When I see Michael Jackson or Elton John and the like, I think “Hey that’s what I’m supposed to be doing!” And even if my desire to be in the spotlight as a musician and a performer was a mental illness that offended the sensibilities of those yet to see their own gifts, I still want to do it. If entertainers we know and love right now listened to their critics and ignored the ones who loved and supported them, WE’D HAVE NO ENTERTAINERS AT ALL.
Imagine a world without the music we love? Imagine if everyone stayed safely in their shell and kept their gifts to themselves?
I guess it’s safe to say most artists are crazy. Good. This world needs more crazy. I’ve been tucked inside my shell that has kept me safe and comfortable for far too long. It’s becoming time for me to accept the naysayers and embrace who I am. I see myself in future lifetimes rocking it on stage in front of a live audience and being recognized for who I really am. I have had this dream since I was a little girl. Just the thought of singing a song in front of others, I imagine crying. It’s a dream.
There is a part of me that is afraid to be happy because in order for me to be happy and do what I want, I have to handle A LOT of ugly judgment. The most crippling part of that judgment are those internalized voices that say “you can’t do it and here’s why”…… The day I say the hell with it and do what I want anyway, I will finally be free.
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, ‘Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?’ Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” –Marianne Williamson